i’m not at all interested in art right now…
i’m sick of making things and then hating them no matter what.
i honestly don’t think i have a creative mind whatsoever, and i’ve trained myself to draw realistically but it’s so boring and unoriginal and i don’t see the point
i’m tired of stressing about a future in art, and finding a way of making myself happy through painting or drawing all the time.
i think i just need to take a break.
ugh i don’t know.
basically i think art is just going to be a hobby for me. nothing more.
if i should keep doing the 365 challenge thing. ugh its so stressful. days like today, where i have so many other things to do, and will probably have no time to draw anything decent, it just makes me more stressed so I end up posting the ugliest things. and i feel like i have to completely finish something, instead of doing what i can, taking my time, and finishing it completely another day. i think instead of doing the 365 thing, i’ll draw as much as I can in my moleskine, make things that don’t completely suck, take my time, and also work on different side projects gradually, instead of trying to finish them in one day. Less structure will help, i think. I hate routines. Art isn’t meant to stress you out, and this posting something everyday shit has me not even wanting to draw at all most days. ok. figured that out.
